Let me paint a picture for u, take u in a journey. Picture urself, as u are in ur minds eye, ur true self. . . Now you come across a cave, alone, far from anyone, fleeing for ur life from u don’t know what, you come across a door, and not having a choice, you open and step through, not having a moment to stop and see what was inside.
A swirling vortex. . . well 2 actually, massive, occupying space one could compare to an elevator shaft but in the middle of yet another cave, the vortex moving in 2 directions, a spiritual up, and a spiral down, both ways seem endless, the further up u look u see the easier the path gets, and is. . .I. . .is . .. is that maybe sun up there? Then ur gaze goes down. . . Down . . . Further Down, watching the path get harder, rougher, more brutal the lower ur gaze gets. Rock and debris of what could be hurls past one another, colliding at times ( more frequently he further down u get) with thunderous booms, shock waves of shrapnel of dreams exploded, weapons of the downward pull, doing everting in its power to destroy all and any good in the world. It wins when we give up.
Without notice a gust of wind sweeps u up and tosses u into the vortex, the way which u came in disappears completely, and you are now forced to find ur way through the up and down spirals of this thing, seeing quickly it’s not as simple as up and down and u once thought, even once moving up u see there are traps, hurdles, and mountains for u to climb, just begging u to slip, so the downward spiral can start to pull at u, marking it easier and easier to slip and fall, start to tumble, further and further down, think any action sci-fi movie/show/book, where the main character gets thrashed about telepathically in some super climactic very messy downtown/castle destroying battle. Every once in a while you hit something in a specific way and you bounce off, just so. . . Enabling you to gain a finger hold, onto something bigger then your self, quick to scramble, using that forward momentum (what there is anyway) to try to move up into easier territory. Maybe making a step or two, then boom, out of no where u get hit square and any footing you had is long gone. . . So the process starts all over again. . . Searching for that one bump, that leads to those precious nano moments of any stability, progressing like a video game character constantly trying to beat the game. Only this time there are no pauses, no rest breaks, or lunch hours, this is non stop grinding, non stop being aware of everything, every tiny little thing, waiting for our spidey-senses to tingle, telling us to get ready to move. Gaining more and more skill as we go, when we do get knocked down we don’t fall as long, or as far as we once did. Even if it’s only an inch closer then we landed last time, we are still an inch closer.
But that is also the problem isn’t it. . . . It’s only an inch, hardly noticeable in a battle with which there is no stopping. It’s not till all those moments, all those inches, add up to measurable movement, till we are able to get out of the fight long enough to see the forest through the battle that has been taking place in its beautiful magnificent, majestic, peaceful, trees, that we are able to even start to take stock of the progress that has actually been made or the skills and strengths that have been acquired along the way. The fight has been long and hard, and it it is harder yet still ahead. But you my dear, are so much stringer then u even know to give yourself credit for. Having kept your head down in your own fight, for ur own survival, you have no idea the unique warrior that your specific personal vortex of life, has truly sharpened you into, the perfect mix and blend of everyone you ever needed and or wanted to be in life, the good and bad, don’t let anyone fool you, it’s by making friends with your demons that u learn from them, not by pissing them off by locking them away. . . Or trying to. . .
Now it’s our job to figure out how to use and adapt the tools and resources we have picked up along our many bumps and scrapes, and flat out disheartening beat downs, and use them to now move forward into territory that is uncharted for us. For your jumps lately have been of leaps and bounds, and I am so proud of you, but now as your rests between battles will be longer and more sure footed, your battles going forward will require all the strength and skills you currently possess, plus what ever you can pick up along the way moving forward. They will get Tougher, longer, and require everything you have, and some of what you don’t realize is there yet. This new stage in your evolution and your path is all about working smarter not harder when necessary, and adapting all the awareness u used to keep u alive in the constant battles of your not so distant past, and use it to now hone in on who u really are, how u can really help this world. Even if it’s just by helping yourself grow to a better position in your life. By leveling up here and now, you are accepting the call to be who you really are, at your core, you are giving yourself permission to really truly express yourself, letting yourself be fully embraced and accepted in the process. It is possible. . . You can do it. . . You can make it. I believe in you, but you have to believe in yourself.
I know where you are now, the place I’m speaking of may seem as real as an oasis in the desert. But it’s true dear one, I have gone through it, and though I’m not much further ahead then yourself, I am in a spot where I can see the other side, and I promise it’s exactly what the universe promised us. . .
U remember don’t you? The promise the universe gave us as kids. . . It’s there! For all of us, room for everyone, just don’t give up, ok!
Oh and even when it’s incredibly hard, when your paths cross with another’s and they are doing everything to deserve an ass kicking. . .don’t! I know u can, I know u are 100% fully capable of delivering exactly what they deserve . . . But karma will take care of them, and she does not like her fun being taken from her and she will come after u instead. So please, focus on ur fight, help others, share what u have learned along ur journey when ur able, simply treat others with kindness, and avoidance when absolutely necessary.
I know the journey is long, and seems endless when your in the dark, but I’m here for u waiting in the other side, we have a spot by the camp fire saved for u.
Oh and if u miss us, or we miss u, don’t worry, just keep moving forward, I’m sure our paths will cross again, as we can not stay stagnant for very long, such is our nature. As humans were not meant to stay in one place or one stage of our lives too long. We rest when needed, and keep moving on, the direction. . . Ultimately, is up to u. 😘
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